I'm so fat. This is SO much fun!

You might be a little confused about the title. Well I am so freaking over weight it is sad and pathetic, not funny. So the last bellydancing class I took this spring I ended each class crying on my drive home. Thoughts running through my head: I'm so fat. I can't do this. I look so horrible. I can't do this. I'm so fat. I'm not any good. I was stupid to think I could do this. I'm so horrible.  and so on and so forth. You want to know whats going through my head during this class! I'm so fat. THIS IS SO MUCH FUN! Wow look at the jiggle. I'm going to go to the gym this week. THIS IS SO MUCH FUN. Yikes flabby arms! I CAN SO DO THIS. I'M HAVING SO MUCH FUN. THIS IS SO FUN. My goodness I have a huge ass. Maybe I'll watch my portions this week. THIS IS SO MUCH FUN.

Talk about a change in thoughts! I know I'm over weight and having to look in the mirror for an hour and a half every saturday morning is not the way I like to live. However I find myself focusing on the movements and where I need to improve. Making plans to improve. Instead of just degrading myself the whole time.
Talk about improvement!

BELLYDANCING IS SO MUCH FUN!!!

I am Bellydancing Goddess!

A friend once said it best when she entitled her blog "I am Hunter Jumper". That said most everything about her. And so here I self proclaim myself I AM BELLY DANCING GODDESS! I shout it out to you, to myself, to the world. I am THE belly dancing Goddess. Every woman is a goddess in her own right. We are the givers of life.
Stand tall, walk proudly and embrace who you are!
That is what I'm doing. Right now, right here. I am embracing who I am and stepping forward into the future. I am embracing a passion that I discovered some time ago. I revisited it last fall when I took a class from my friend Rhiannon.I temporarily gave up after a very unhappy experience this spring taking another belly dancing class from a different instructor...or slew of instructors really, but that is a different story.  Last week I started taking Belly Dancing again and I refuse to hide my passions and excitement! I am a belly dancer! I love belly dancing. I love almost everything about it. So with this blog I will share my high points and low. My struggles and accomplishments.
I stand up and proudly proclaim

I am Bellydancing Goddess